Clarissa.
22.
23/06/1983.
University Of Sydney.
Sydney, Australia.
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With the fire-works... I celebrated my sorrow...
i saw this question somewhere, but i can't remember where-- on TV or in some magazine, "What is happiness to you?"
So, what is happiness to you? For me, it's so simple, i don't even need to ponder for a second. Happiness is when i find the guy who's fated to spend a life-time with me...
I don't know what is wrong with me, or maybe what's wrong with my fate. It's like i'm cursed or something when it come to guys. Situation is always-- 'guy likes me, i don't like', 'i like guy, guy don't like me' or 'guy seems like he likes me, but never say it straight out'. Get what i mean? This doesn't happen to people all the time, right? But it happens to me ALL THE TIME.. *SOB*!!
Latest sad-story of my life:
With his arms around me, and fire-works going off above our heads (sounds romantic huh? but what's really happening was....) And i was crying in his arms. He had just said to me, "It's not i don't like you, i like you, you understand? But my mind is too complicated now and i can only think of myself. I think my mind is too complicated now to have a relationship. I'm so sorry"
I mean-- what crap is that? He likes me but doesn't want to be with me? That's actually possible?? Well.. maybe it is to him, but definitely not to me! To me, if you love me, then you MUST want to be with me, right??! >.< *sobsob*
It was like the fire-works were set off to celebrate my heart-break once again...
I seriously don't understand what's wrong. Please tell me it's not because i'm really bad and ugly and undesirable. I thought i'm quite ok in all aspects (haha..!). So sad... I think i'm seriously starting to doubt myself >.<>.<)o
Are you getting sick of my sad, failed-love stories already? I know.. Me too...
Heart-broken once again,
Clare.
posted @ 12:15 AM