WELCOME!
WELCOME!
See? The Swans are hanging out together, leaving out the poor little 'ugly duckling'...
The swans are totally ignoring the poor thing...
" Don't go, little duckling..!!! "
The heart-broken 'ugly duckling' decides to escape from the cruelty of the swans...
The poor little 'ugly duckling' alone in the big, endless lake... *sob sob*
"Gam-ba-te, little duckling!!!"
--Wasn't that the best???!! muahahaha... v(^^)v
Ok, welcome back, everyone!! I’m sorry for disappearing for so long. Now, now.. don’t cry, I’m back now, so it’s ok. (heehee..) Anyway, first things first: to talk briefly on happenings in my life for the past few months, and I must say, it’s quite a fair bit..
Ok, so the guy who I dedicated most of my previous entries to (and who happens to be the guy who totally broke my heart) popped right out of my life and went back to Japan. But I’ve moved on… (hopefully…)
My younger sister (Yes!! Our dear old Vivien!!!) came to Sydney to visit for about a month. Well.. she stayed for too bloody long, so it got boring towards the end, but generally, it was fun—yeah! (^^)v
I proudly took her to the Sydney Opera House, but she was not one bit impressed—disappointing! And mostly we did a lot of shopping and eating (idiotic gal, has expensive taste in food—spent a fortune on feeding her!), and going to the beach, watching anime and eating chips at home, etc…
Then, after that month, (not according to my initiate plan) I went back to Singapore, only to find out that my Ah-Kong (Grandpa) had passed away, and to think that my family kept it from me for almost a month.
So, one fine afternoon, my mummy handed me a A4-sized envelope, out of the blue. I opened it, and in it, photos taken during my ah-kong’s funeral. Surprisingly though, I didn’t cry when I saw the photos (‘surprisingly’ because I cry at the slightest things, don’t i?). Of course, it’s not because I’m not sad, maybe it just had not register into my mind at that time. Hmm… I really have no idea why too.
Of course, not denying the fact that I was never very close to my Ah-Kong. One thing, he was a really quiet man, and often he walked around the house, silently and seriously, not saying a word…
But I will never forget the way a kind smile would appear on that solemn face of his whenever we greeted him, “Hello Ah-Kong!” or “Ah-Kong! Bye-bye!”…
Will never forget how he always smiled so happily whenever he sees his great-grandson (our dear Derek)…
Will never forget my last conversation with him, with him on the hospital bed, asking me about my studies in Australia…
Will never forget the time when…
*Sigh*… but death is inevitable in life, isn’t it? They come as a package, say-- just like a MacDonalds’ happy meal, u buy the burger, it comes with the fries and the drink. You can’t reject the fries and the drink, the person at the counter will insist that u take them. So, if u want to live, u will have to accept the death-part that comes with it.
Yeah, life sucks, doesn’t it? I know… I knew that a lonnnggg lonnngggg time ago…
So, I stayed in Singapore for one whole month—enjoying oishi mummy-cooked food, watching lots of TV, bringing Derek to nursery, having get-togethers with friends and relatives, getting my hair done. After I had my hair permed and coloured, I found out something very interesting. U see.. it’s not uncommon in the past for me to get comments from people that I look Japanese, but ever since I had this new hair-style, I started getting comments from people, whom I just met, that I look Korean.
Hmmm.. so, u know what does this mean? A Japanese with permed and light-coloured hair will look like a Korean! And a Korean with dark, straight hair will look like a Japanese?! Heehee..
Doing senseless talk again. Sorry… (^^)
Anywayzzz.. so, I came back to Sydney a month later, but only to leave again, 2 days later… o(>.<)o I was in Canberra for 5 longgggg weeks for my clinical placement in The Canberra Hospital. Not exactly the most exciting times of my life, I must say. But oh well, attachments were never fun, to start off with. And to make things worse, where I stayed—no internet access, no TV (the one in the common lounge area doesn’t count!). And guess what.. there are no beaches in Canberra!!! (bcos it’s an inland place) Horror, horror!!! o(>.<)o
BUT luckily, we still managed to get some shopping done on the weekends—haha... To think that my mummy thought that once I’m out of Sydney, I will not spend money on shopping.. muahahaha!! v(^^)v
Ahem! Anyway…… Yes, the weekends were nice, but shopping in Canberra is nothing, I repeat, NOTHING compared to shopping in Sydney. In Canberra, the main shopping area is just one, I repeat, ONE big shopping mall, and that’s it! If u ever come to Canberra, don’t expect to find a ‘Orchard Road’-type of shopping area, ok? Don’t say that I didn’t warn u, ok? But of course, Canberra has its beautiful side too—it’s kinda filled with mountains, hills, fields. A beautiful and quiet place, really. In my subsequent entries, I’ll be posting more photos I took in Canberra.
All right, turns out, that wasn’t very brief, was it? Haha.. So, all in all, I did a lot of packing of luggage and moving from place to place in the past months—living the life of a nomad. I didn’t like that at all! I’m just glad to be home now (home, as in, home in Sydney), and to be able to go back to school and look at cute guys again… in addition to studying hard too, of course!! Haha.. ;)
However, after almost half a year in Australia, living under different conditions—I realized all these might have make me a little bit more mature, a little bit less dependent on my parents now (not money-wise, definitely.. ^^).. But then again, it could be because I am INDEED more mature now (in another words, older!!—horror, horror!!) it’s true what they say about how time really flies once u hit the big 2-0, I can feel it in my blood, in my cells, in the nuclei of my cells—that I’m getting old. Wrinkles are starting to form at the corners of my eyes. I nearly fainted and died on the spot that day when I saw them—those evil little lines, taking away my once-youthful looks!!! AAAAAHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh… o(>.<)o No, actually, now it should be like this-- o(=>.<=)o
Anyway, that’s all for today. I’m really tired today, anyone will be too, after carrying a big, fat luggage (of at least 20 to 30 kgs, I think) all the way from Canberra to Sydney. I’ll be putting up more photos I’ve taken in Canberra.. so, do pop in for a ‘see-see-look-look’ soon.. Ta! (^^)V
Song-of-the-day Time!!:
Zhi Zu (Contented) by MayDay
If I fell in love with your smile,
What can I do to keep it by my side?
If u have found happiness, not because of me,
I will know that to truly have u, is to let go…
When the breeze blew past,
as the kite flew up high into the sky,
I pray for u, I wish for the best for u...
As you vanish into the crowd.
I realized that to smile when it's crying inside hurts the most…
Another really, really, really sad song from MayDay. Perfect song to listen to when u feel like crying your eyes out. At one point in time, i actually listen to this song, and this song ONLY, repeatedly for at least 2 to 3 weeks-- great song to cry to...
So, even now, when I hear this song, although I don’t feel sad anymore, tears will sometimes just come to my eyes-- not within my control at all. *Sigh*.. U try your best to forget, but then u realize-- your body will never forget… o(=>.<=)o