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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

(explanation of picture posted above) I'm very proud of this fan standing in my room now.. so i thought i should show it to u.. i assembled it all by myself! and with not much hassle and was done quite quickly too! Haha.. if i'm back home in singapore, i would most probably get my dad to do such things for me.. Think if my parents see this, they will feel proud of me too.. and will most probably think: "Orrhh.. Our Clarissa zhang da le"... (zhang da le= grew up liao)
See? the things living on your own can do to a person..

I have to say this first-- that terrifying presentation today. Well.. I thought my presentation was ok--normal. With sufficient eye-contact, didn't mis-pronounce anything, didn't pee into my pants. But apparently to this grp mate of mine, it wasn't good enough! And he was bloody sarcastic to me for the whole bloody morning! My goodness! If not for my extreme nervousness, i would have strangled him! But oh well.. it's over and done with, and i'm not going to have anything to do with him anymore! Bloody 'gee-na' guy! To think that i actually thought that he was cute initially! Guess the cold weather shrank the lens in my eyes or something, resulting in me becoming partially blind..
*Sigh* don't really want to talk about that anymore, guess i'd complained about it enough times to my poor house-mates (i'm sorry for making u gals go thru this with me for at least 2 hrs.. haha)

Next!.. On my way back home today, i can really feel that it's Spring-time now.. Besides the fact that the air feels a bit Spring-ny, on my 4km hike back from school to home today, i encountered the many stuff that Spring brought along with it..

1) Flies-- or make that, irritating flies. The moment i stepped out of school today, this house-fly kept hovering around me, and it was soo irritating, it refused to leave me alone no matter how hard i tried to wave it away (and looking stupid at the same time-- imagine me waving my hands around vigorously as i walked down the street). And the funny thing was that when i entered a shop to get some oats, the fly stopped following me, but when i exited the shop, it was back to hovering around my head. It seemed like the fly was so retarded (and determined to follow me all the way back home) that it actually waited for me outside the shop, while i did my grocery-shopping! Haha.. Ok i know, i know.. Perhaps it wasn't the same fly, but how would i know? They all looked the same to me! haha...

2) Rain-- Was caught in a slight shower.. Well.. it was nice, kinda, given that it's not common to have rain in Australia now (having some kind of drought now, actually).. The nice, sweet smell of rain-- i likeee!
Well.. Although my eye-liner could have smudge with the rain dripping down my face.. but who cares, really? Guess trying to wave the house-fly away constantly had made me looked retarded enough..

3) Flowers-- When walking into the street leading to my house, i was still feeling very angry about my grp mate, and with my head down, was cursing him under my breath. Then suddenly, i lifted up my head.. and it was like: WOW..!!! In front of my eyes, there was this big tree filled with these gorgeous light-purple flowers, against the light-blue sky, and with some sun-rays shinning through the flowers-- 1 word: WOW!!! It was soooo beautiful, it makes me wanna cry! At that moment, all the anger sort of left my body, and i felt so touched by the beauty of nature! I really wanted to stand there, in the middle of the street and just stare.. But then this lady walked past me, and gave me this really weird look. (Guess i must had looked funny, standing in the middle of the street, staring up a tree with my mouth half opened) So i had to continue walking..
U know what? It's times like this that i actually feel that life is worth living-- even if it's for small things like this.. Bad things happen often, but i can always depend on such moments to touch me, and to give me strength and hope.

So it seemed that i had a fruitful way back from school today..!

I still have lorry-loads more stuff to say.. but it's getting late and i should get back to my school-work, so gonna end off now with a song (yes.. it's back!)

Featured song of the day time!:
Rainbow (Cai Hong) by MayDay

(roughly translated)
You are like rain on a sunny day...
mysterious and difficult to understand..
The more i try to make sense of it, the more confusing it gets...
have to slowly admit that the title of this story is 'Wrong'...
Your love is like the rainbow..
in the sky after the rain...
Beautiful but confuses the mind...
Your love is like the rainbow...
I spread out my arms, but ended up holding on to nothing...

Hmm.. was figuring since i'm on the topic of Spring, may as well feature this song-- Rainbow seems so... Spring-ny.
Nice song but sad, one of those songs that will make me think of him...
Some songs have this effect on me-- makes me think of some1 and my tears will just flow. This had happened a couple of times here, and my house-mates were totally freaked out. Haha.. But seriously, i don't see anything bad with that. I always think that it's good to cry every once in a while, and let the bottled up sorrow and misery within you flow out and away with your tears...

That's all for today, people! So, the usual... Thank u for reading my blog, do come back for more tomorrow..!

Love,
Clare.

posted @ 12:49 AM