Clarissa.
22.
23/06/1983.
University Of Sydney.
Sydney, Australia.
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After the tears, what is left? we cannot go on crying forever, but we cannot just forget too... Left with just an area of nothing-ness.. Yesterday night, something really upsetting happened. Well... in a way, i brought it upon myself. I don't want to go into details, because am trying very hard to forget. But it hurts so much, it's like a person digging his finger into my heart and poking around. Poke.. Poke.. Poke..then, Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! That's pretty much the best way i can describe how i felt.
Which explained the sucky entry i posted yesterday.
Now, my mind is still a bit foggy from the pain, so i can't think of anything good to write today. Oh... but to come to think about it. A good thing did come out from last night's episode. After seeing me getting so upset and distressed, my nice and super supportive house-mates agreed to accompany me to the beach tomorrow!
If u have been noticing, i have posted images of this beach with my previous entries. Those are actually pictures i took of the Bondi Beach (sydney, australia) during my previous visit. The beach was so beautiful-- blue waters and white sand, just the way an ideal beach is supposed to be. However, what makes it a really, really cool beach is that there is also a skating area right next to the beach. Surfer guys and skater boys-- perfect place for guy-watching!
Hopefully tomorrow at Bondi beach, the sea-breeze can blow away my worries, the waves wash away my troubles and the warmth of the sun-shine helps heal my wounded heart...
Interesting fact of the day:Drinking lemon and ginger tea, in between meals, is supposed to help detox your system. Had given it a try-- not the best tasting drink in the world, but i did managed to clear my bowels well (in simplier terms, shit well) after drinking it. Give it a try if u wanna, but no gurantee as to whether it will work for u, ok?Interesting fact of the day 2:Goldfishes only have a memory span of 3 seconds. I learnt of that only today, from a friend who (very interestingly) read this fact from the packaging of her pad. I guess that is all for today. Do come back for more tomorrow, although i muct admit that my entries do seem to be getting more and more boring. But it's just my fourth entry, actually my 3rd and half entry (because, i figured that yesterday's entry is too short to be considered as 1 full entry), so give me some time. for improvement. I will get a hold of my life and hopefully, be able to start writing better things in my blog. Thank u for your kind attention, and as usual, to end off with a song...
Featured song of the day time!:Tong lei (Same kind) by Stepanie SunI tried holding back time, but it simply ignored me...Is there anyone who is as sad as i am...?The wind is blowing...All of a sudden, who came to my mind...?From sun-rise to sun-set...How many years have passed me by...?My heart is grey and in a mess...The world gets so lonely sometimes,we just need another of the same kind...*Sigh*... I can totally relate to this song. Oh.. this reminds me of something:
I once saw this music video on MTV, I can't rememeber the title nor the singer of the song, but i can never forget the story line of the music video. It's started off with this girl writing a letter, saying something like: " Hi, Let me introduce myself. My name is so-and-so. We have yet to meet, and I am still waiting. Where are you?". I cannot remember the exact words, but think it's something along this line. Anyway, this girl then attach the letter to a balloon and let it flew up into the sky.
So, she is actually writing the letter to her the other half, who has yet to appear in her life. I always thought that the story of this music video is so beautiful.
I've always believed that in life, everyone of us is fated to be with someone-- our 'the other half'. Haruki Murakami, said it best in his book, 'Kafka on the shore'. He wrote in his book that when God created human beings, the beings were not individual human, but each being is a combination of either a male/male, a female/female, or a male/female. And just before God put these beings down to earth, he chopped each into halves. Thus, people are always wandering around their whole life, searching for their other half, in order to be complete...
How beautiful is that? i totally agreed with his kind of thinking. That in life, there is a someone for everyone of us, just waiting for fate to bring the 2 halves together......
Love,
Clare.
posted @ 12:30 AM
